Whether I like it or not,
Whether I acknowledge it or not,
He knows best.
I often think I know what I want,
I know what will make me happy,
I know what will work out perfectly.
Haha! Perfectly.
Yeah, right.
God must laugh at me
When I think I know better,
Even better than Him, an all-knowing God
Who's not only in eternity past but also eternity future.
Thinking about it, I should laugh at myself too.
Of course, it doesn't take me long
To realize that I don't know what I've gotten myself into.
In my head, it all seemed so easy.
But now that I'm here,
My mess completely unfolding,
I realize that I don't know the first thing about being god.
I thought I wanted this, though.
I thought I wanted to be in complete control,
To orchestrate my life when and how I want.
The way it benefits me the most, or so I thought.
But now, I'm realizing that the world, even my life,
It isn't quite all about me.
It's not a hopeless realization,
Because I know I matter; my life matters.
But it is a humbling realization.
One where I’m faced with the truth that
There is a God, and I’m not Him.
So, day by day, I am learning that
Instead of fighting the truth,
Instead of playing god,
Or whatever I'm trying to be,
Maybe I should rest instead of rebel.
Maybe I should, you know, let God be God.
After all,
Whether I like it or not,
Whether I acknowledge it or not,
He is God, and He knows best.
And I want the best.
So, I'll train my heart to want everything He wants for me,
To want each one of my Father's good plans to give me a future and a hope.
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